Searching for Serenity

Hello again my old friend, it's been a long time since we've talked. Seems like I only come to you when things are going bad. Things couldn't get any worse right now. Then again knowing my luck they actually could. I'm all over the place mentally and emotionally. I just want to be back home(Maryland). I want to be around friends and family more. Age, death, surroundings, and more put things into perspective. I've lost a lot of classmates lately and it hurts. So young with so much life to live. Now they're gone forever, way too soon nonetheless. Leaving behind grief stricken loved ones and great memories. My brother and my mother are the strongest people I know. I turn to them for motivation when I need it. Recently that hasn't been enough though. I've lost my way in this thing called life. I'm getting closer to 30 so maybe that has a lot to do with it. You start to think about things more you know. Starting a family, career, being more stable, etc. There's this great female and I might've missed my chance with her. We were both into each other but I reverted back to my old self and shut her out. I had several moments of clarity yesterday and expressed how I felt to her. She asked why I was showing consistency all of sudden. Basically why bother now and stuff like that. The heart is a funny thing sometimes. Rarely on the same page as the mind but when it is connected it's truly beautiful. I've been writing music a lot lately and it actually means something once again. I've also started back writing this movie script that I began YEARS ago. Early process of some cosmetics and clothing stuff too. Also thinking about writing a pilot for a tv show, we'll see though. Life is hectic right now but I'll make sense of it. I have to there's no other choice right? As always thanks for listening my old friend I really appreciate it. Until next time...

Song of the day: "Something worth saving" -Gavin DeGraw

Quote of the day:

“Sometimes you don’t realize your own strength until you come face to face with your greatest weakness.” —Susan Gale