I'm Back

So I've been away for a little while, needed a mental break. The Irony is I write these blogs for that very same getaway. Life gets rough at times, rougher than some people will ever know. At times we often wear a smile but the people who know us best can see It's a facade. The last couple of weeks I've been In a disturbing place mentally. I'm feeling a lot better now but I had to make tough decisions. I had to accept the fact that sometimes we need to be alone. Too often we keep people around that bring us down. Whether It's negativity, using us, drama, or whatever the case may be. It's toxic and I've been poisoned long enough. So I started a clean slate and I'm ok with It. No leeches, no being in love, no being dependent on people. Independence Is a beautiful thing and most people don't have the courage to seek It. The fear of being alone or having no one there Is too much. I've always feared that and failure but then It hit me. In life we come up short sometimes I had to learn It's ok to fail sometimes. Those who care or love you will accept those failures. Those who don't care or love you will use them to attack you. What you do in your moment of failure could make or break you. You're not going to win every single time you try something. Also I learned that not everyone can be the QB that has the game winning drive or be the star that hits the game winning shot. We all can't be Messi and score the game winning goal that keeps our country alive in the world cup. We all can't be Sidney Crosby or win a grammy. Doesn't mean we can't dream or want that right? Too often people stop dreaming or stop setting goals and give up. As a person who's been there I promise It's not the way to go. You either live to regret It or learn to be ok with It. Honestly I'm lost somewhere In the middle of the two. Football and music are two things I cared deeply about and I stopped loving both. What I wouldn't give to perform In front of a crowd that knows my songs. To hear people sing the words I wrote to describe my life. You live with the choices you make and can either strive for me more or be content. Those same choices are there when It comes to love. There's two sides to love, pain and joy. That's false, there's a third side that combines both called Sacrifice. When one does something that will cause them pain just to see another person experience happiness. These are the strongest type of people, to give up your heart's desire. They say If you love a person you'll do whatever to make them happy. Even If It means going through hell ourselves. Robert Heinlein once said “Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.” I guess that expression "If you love something set It free" falls under the same boat. Sacrifice comes in other forms too trust me I know. What happens when you get tired of sacrificing to make others happy? Do you become a villain or do people applaud your courage to take a stand? Time will tell my friends, thanks for reading. I'll be posting a lot less, hope you'll still come back each time.

Song of The Day: Chariot - Gavin DeGraw

Quote of The Day: “We’re all a little weird. And life is a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness—and call it love—true love.” - Robert Fulghum